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Beach front view

Daytona Beach, Florida (taken summer 2006)

I have a beach front view on my life.

The past year has been incredibly hard. I made it. Yet, I sit here wondering where my life will take me next.

My life has always been like that. I never knew where I would be from one year to the next. My life was rarely easy.

I learned early on to enjoy the smell of pine in the fall, the sound of my children laughing, my husband’s eyes catching mine in an exchange of happiness and all the beautiful memories of life. I learned to cheerish the things that made me happy.

When I faced a wall I found a way over or around it.

I feel like I have reached the end of something. I keep myself busy so that I don’t have to face it. I do.

I clean the apartment, tend to the children and my husband, I try to solve problems (like our sick computer or my blog which loads at turtle speed).

I stay busy.

I am afraid to settle down in one place. I have never lived in one place for too long.

My whole life I have moved from one country to another, one state to another, one city to another or one apartment to another.

I want to settle down and make a life in one place. I do.

I have reached a point in my life where I know where I will live. I know where my life will be played out.

Will I be bored?

I feel grounded. I trust my instincts.

I am enjoying my beach front view.

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  • Amy August 15, 2007, 11:34 pm

    I was like that for a long time. We moved a lot when I was a kid, too. Though maybe not as much as you, but still — I know what it’s like to start over … again … and again. I have lived in Colorado 10 years now, and I honestly feel like that’s a real accomplishment! I’m very proud of myself! We have lived in this house for 4.5 years, almost longer than I’ve lived in any one residence before. I feel good about it. Yeah, I get restless sometimes, but hey, that’s what travel is for, right??

    (As a side note, my husband’s career is a bit uncertain right now, so I could be eating my words in a matter of months! Go figure.)

  • Mad WIlliam August 15, 2007, 11:45 pm

    I can relate. I have lived in 15 different states. I have moved every 10 to 30 months my entire life. I’m not sure I would know how to act staying in one place.

    It does sound nice though.

  • odessa August 16, 2007, 5:41 am

    this post resonates in my life as well, as I’ve never stayed in a place longer than 3 years. thanks for sharing this and keep on enjoying your beach front view!

  • expatraveler August 25, 2007, 2:47 pm

    I enjoyed your beach front view too (where was that taken at??)

    And moving, yes I can relate to the wanting to settle down thing and have a place to call home. While I was living in Switzerland, I didn’t know how long I’d be living in one place. Now that I’m in Canada, it’s more certain. But now I just want to buy a home and move back to where you live. ;-)

  • Pumpkin August 26, 2007, 9:07 am

    I had forgotten to add where the photo was taken. It was taken last summer at Daytona Beach, Florida.

    I love living in the mountains. It is beautiful here. Everyday I am stopped in my tracks by the beauty around me.

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