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Homesick, again

I am homesick for France.  I knew it would happen.  I just miss France.  Just because I talk about things I don’t like in France doesn’t mean that I stopped loving her just as much as I always did.  I talked often on this blog about things that I didn’t agree with in the States…however, I am and always will be American.  I love both my countries.  I am blessed to have two countries and cursed to always miss one of them.  I hope that I can visit France within three years.  I can’t imagine going longer without knowing her harmony and villages tucked into gentle fields.

I haven’t been blogging much because I just haven’t felt like it.  It all happened so fast that I needed time to soak it all in.  I needed time to start missing France and the life that I had to give up.  It is never easy to make the decision to move to another country…I have done it twice in two and a half years.  It was just too much.

I often see the streets of Strasbourg in my mind.  I can hear the church bells and smell the warm bread.  I miss the Vosges and the villages.  I miss Strasbourg.  I miss French coffee.  I miss the little cars and the flowers everywhere.  I really miss France.

So, please understand that when I write about things I think should change in France it is no different than the things that I have and will write about America.  I will always love France.  Always.

My family keeps saying…’I am so happy you are finally home.’  When I hear it I have to fight back the tears.  I was never not home in France.  Never.  I have two home countries and I love both of them very, very much.

I carry France in my heart with a tenderness and love that will never fade.

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  • Julie August 26, 2006, 4:46 am

    You write so beautifully!

  • Pumpkin August 30, 2006, 3:17 am

    I don’t know about my writing lately…but, thank you :)

  • Wendy August 30, 2006, 8:04 am

    France gets under your skin and into your heart. I know.

  • Betty C. September 16, 2006, 10:35 am

    Your post brought tears to my eyes. I have lived in France for 16 years and have often wondered how it would feel to go back to the States. It’s something that may happen someday, I just take things one day at a time.

    My current life allows me to go back to the USA for six weeks every summer, so for now that is a good compromise. I know if we moved to the USA, I would not be going to France for six weeks every summer.

    I wish you all the best in your new life and will enjoy reading about it…

  • Pumpkin September 17, 2006, 4:25 am

    Betty,
    I had tears in my eyes the whole time I was writing it. I still miss France and think of her every single day.

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