I have been reading some of my old posts to try and find my voice again. I think that it is helping. Once we moved from our apartment in Strasbourg into my husband’s parents home, I lost my heart for writing. I want it back.
I know that I miss France and that it will never go away. I know this because I have been reading my old posts about missing America and how I would think about and miss America every day that I was living in France. You can read one of my favorite posts here.
I am happy today. I am keeping my life in perspective. I am looking to the future and the day that our family will have our own home. I love the time we spend here with my father and his wife. Both of them are wonderful to us and I am learning to trust in people again. I want to trust again. I need that.
Today, I am making a promise to myself that I will only see the good. I will not let anything that is not useful to me or my family get me down. I am going to slow down. One thing you may not have figured out about me is that I process information quickly. I do everything too fast. I walk, eat, talk, think, drive, drink, answer without thinking…well, you get the idea. I need to slow down.
I want to enjoy my life while I am here no matter where I may be living.
I am going to make my own (good) luck and I am going to find my voice and dust her off. My posts have been awful for too long. Even I am tired of reading them! Here’s to a better life and much improved blog throughout 2007.