I have been re-examining my beliefs for about a month now. It is like a circle where I often find myself back where I started. Only with more questions and more curiosity to answer those questions.
As a child, I watched everyone and everything. I couldn’t tear myself away from it all. I think it is natural that I was a Social Psychology major with a minor in Applied Ethics in college. All the other subjects that I had to take I did well in. Not spectacular. Well. Any class that dealt with Psychology, Philosophy, Physiology or (my favorite) Sociology…I excelled in.
My youngest daughter is like me in this way. I have to watch her constantly when we are out because she gets so lost in all that is around her that she forgets to watch where she is going. Once I looked down where I thought she was beside me and she wasn’t. I turned around searching for her. There she was walking in exactly the opposite direction as us intently watching the trees and the birds in the sky. Observing her world with an intensiveness that I know so well.
I search myself all the time. Wondering why I am not a better person. Why I am lazy.
I only have this one life to do this…The best I can. While I do think I am a good person in my heart I am sure that I can do better.
So, I search. I read. I meditate. I reflect. I judge (more myself than others). I learn. I make mistakes.
I will never be perfect. As I advance in years, I understand more and more that is OK.
I continue to watch others. Challenge others. Get angry with others. Love others. Forgive others (even when they don’t forgive me).
I observe my world with less and less distance.
Photos below are of the Easter service (not sure the real name for it since I am not Catholic) at Strasbourg Cathedral.